Happiness Blooms From Within

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Last night, before the sun went down, I watched as six robins flew freely about, singing and flocking their feathers in stray water puddles. I always love to experience the sight of robins after winter. There’s something magical about a change of the season. Spring is nearly here, and soon a mamma robin will be nesting right under my balcony from the same nest left year after year.

Today is my day off, and as I wait to see those robins again, I sip my coffee slower, not gulping it down to the last drop and jumping for the second cup. It wasn’t too long ago that I had stopped drinking coffee all together (a whole twelve days). Now I limit myself two to four ounces daily. It’s just enough to satisfy my craving, but not so much as to cause acid reflux or anxiety. It kinda sucks to get older and have to deal with acid reflux. After the new year something clicked in me and I decided to start making changes. A ton of changes. Call it my new years resolutions times two!

For awhile now I’ve been a mostly all organic grocery consumer, and very particular about what goes in my household as far as toxins go. But I guess this new year has challenged me more so. It became so that I was changing everything. I mean EVERYTHING! I got rid of our microwave and bought a new toaster oven. It’s actually amazing! I used my 40% off at Kohls to purchase a KitchenAid brand. I got rid of the last of our aluminum pots and pans and bought a really nice pair of All-Clad D5 Set of 2 French Skillets 9 Inch & 11 Inch which I bought at Williams-Sonoma, but amazon has them on sale often as well. Now my kitchen is stocked with Le Creuset and All-Clad cookware, and I completely love it! If you want to know more about this cookware checkout “A lesson on cookware” to see why I love these brands.

My changes didn’t stop there…

After my mom went through breast cancer treatment, I learned about wire-free bras so of course I changed out all my bras, too. Even all my candles are now only beeswax, though I’m craving to get some really good smelling soy candles. I found myself doing so much research about what’s healthy and what’s not. It was almost overwhelming. Henry said it’s just a phase I was going through after seeing my mom go through what she had and I believe that. It was hard, and maybe this is a way I cope. But, of course, my changes didn’t stop there…

I decided to make a dreadful doctor appointment to remove a mole on my back. No one wants to do this, ever. But it was here when I realized something. Right here, when I was cooking my oatmeal on the stove instead of the microwave, having Henry change my bandage on my back from where the mole was, and trying hard to overcome the sluggish feeling I was having after quitting coffee. I had realized that it was too much and I was frustrated because I couldn’t recognize my lifestyle anymore. I was trying hard, yet again, to be and do everything perfect. And that is a scary thing.

A huge part of me is glad that I made those changes though, because I learned a lot. I learned that I can overcome it. I learned that I can set limits on my coffee consumption. I learned that it’s okay to not be perfect. I learned that it’s a good thing to do things we are afraid to do, like make those doctor appointments and just go through with it. Because now I can be excited for our vacation to Florida and Door County to wear any bikini I want and not have to hide the mole on my back. Now, I can cook real food and reheat it without a microwave.

My decision to embrace these changes led me to a little spring inspiration. I took a shopping trip to the Jo-Ann store and picked up a copy of The Magnolia Journal (the only magazine where I’ve actually read all of it). I went with Henry’s mom and found a magnificent spider plant. My favorite houseplant for many reasons-one being a great air purifier. But while I was shopping I found a beautiful quote, “Happiness blooms from within.” Yes, it sure does. Happiness can be found by changing things in life, sure. But, don’t change too much, because we are who we are. Try changing things that would make your life better. And just remember, not all change is bad. Sometimes that change can bring new happiness into your life.

 

 

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What Makes Life So Sweet

 

As I find myself in a time where many may be stressed, being as I just graduated from college and am looking for a real job, I find myself at peace instead. I find that I’m taking it all in slowly. I came upon this quote from the lovely Emily Dickinson, that not only confirmed my feelings, but inspired me as well, “That it will never come again is what makes life so sweet.” I really believe in this quote. I’m only going to graduate from college once. Slowly taking in life changes makes this life experience so sweet for me.

With graduation comes change. Change is a good thing. It brings us something different, something better. And we should always welcome change because it shows growth. Moments like this, packing up all my belongings from my first downtown apartment, are bittersweet. I will never again live like a college student. I will never have my first apartment again, either. With change, comes the second apartment, my second adventure in a different city.

Sweetness, it is the excitement we all get inside. It is the anticipation for the next sweet thing. I anticipate the day I get my new apartment, just days away now. Leaving the college life behind, and entering the mature world. For me, I’ve already been in the mature world. I know the beauties in life, I know how to enjoy the small things and be grateful for what I have. My boyfriend has been my best friend throughout my college years. In two weeks we will be dating for five years. It’s been an amazing adventure we’ve gone on together. Now that school is done, we anticipate what’s to come. Adopting a precious cat is first on our list, and I am overjoyed with anticipation.

If we don’t get excited or feel joy when change occurs, when it’s done and gone it’s too late. What I mean is, we have to accept that joy and feel it, because it will be gone before you know it. I’m enjoying this wait. The wait before we get our new loft apartment. Sometimes, the excitement is even better then the actual event. But from my experience, excitement doesn’t ever dull if it’s real and something you want. Never let anyone dull your excitement either. If it sparks a light in you, then it’s real. I guess what I’m trying to say is: excitement, joy, and anticipation make life sweet, because before you know it, that moment will forever be gone.